When life brings people in, someone usually falls out...

People come and go. I like the ones who come, and usually feel like the one who goes. Sometimes the people you meet you hold on to, like there will be no tomorrow, and some people you rush through the entire friendship in a few months and end it. Life is a roller coaster, and I live it to the fullest, with no regrets. I fall entirely too fast for people in general. And don't fall out fast enough for others. I am in love with the very idea of love, and continually fight for that feeling in many people I encounter. the chase is half of the fun but once its over, it is sometimes just over. But things progress at its own pace sometimes too. Friends, or more, I hope to be all that I can be but that's not always up to you. Sometimes it is up to them, or him.... or her. Thinking makes my hands shake, my brain race, my mouth form a smile. If I were hooked up to a heart monitor, the thought of these thoughts would clearly make my heart beat a million a minute. It causes me to lose my breath like I went down a big hill on a roller coaster, and I feel it in my stomach. I want you all over me, I want your hands in mine, against a wall, reservations off, and mouth to mouth. I want it all. and I want it with you, or you. or you. but what happens when thats all the same person. Oh, my thoughts are getting jumbled and I am full of liquid courage, so I am courageously going to stop writing for the moment.